I hate myself. How am I supposed to feel? At first I felt betrayed, but then realized that you were never mine to lose anyways. I suppose I felt happy for you, but then it felt wrong. I feel...sad, and angry and frustrated. Such a myriad of expressions that I have swimming inside my head and my heart but I can never express. It's so overwhelming that my head hurts whenever I think about it.
Why? I wish I never met you. Why her? Why did you let me fall this hard, only to make me realize that I shouldn't have felt so much for you. You had someone else from the beginning and I will never understand why God chose to put you into my life. Because I thought that we needed each other, and I still think that we need each other but it obviously isn't true, at least in your case. Maybe all along it was just me who needed you. But now you're lost to me so how am I supposed to continue? How will I guide my life? Why her why why.
I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to loveI did, I did And you were strong and I was not My illusion my mistake I was careless I forgot I did
And now when all is done There is nothing to say You have gone and so effortlessly You have won You can go ahead tell them Tell them all I know now Shout it from the roof tops Write it on the skyline All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible